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Hey, again,

Fast paced posting is what every blog reader hopes for and all blog writers dread, right? I actually wanted to talk about a certain subject with you guys, just to clear the air, and my depression-ridden heart. This subject, is friends.

I'm not a very good maker of friends. I honestly don't trust people, and I certainly am not a great friend. I wouldn't want to raise myself on a nonexistant pedestal. I've had my fair share of friends from all sexes and ethnicities, some still in my life and some not ( some plotting for my gruesome death, I'd imagine.) I've done many people wrong, I'm not going to hide it, and vice versa. I've lost some of the greatest friends I've known, by fault of me and them. One of them more recently than the others. Luckily, ( as an result of my relentless stalking and digging ) I found out that this person is doing much better now, than he was before. I, though maybe sad, am happy for you, R ( can't know if you're going to receive this message, but I trust in your stalking ways. ) I wish I could still talk with him, and be an utter nerd with him, but life has moved on. Maybe I should too.

After all, I do have friends. Great friends. Amazing friends. We've had ups and downs together for years. We've been close. I'm grateful for these people, because I know I'm not easy to deal with.  But they do it. I want to sincerely thank you guys for all, and also thank the people I've once called friends. I've had some of life's greatest moments with all of you, so thank you. 

Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.

/end melodramatic rant

-mustardmon